I was here by Gayle Forman

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Simon & Schuster, 2015. ISBN 9781471124396
(Age: 15+) Highly recommended. 'I regret to inform you that I have had to take my own life'.
Cody is learning the difference between a memorial service, a vigil and a prayer circle. Her best friend Meg, with whom she has shared everything, has let her know by time-delay email that she has already taken her own life.
Survivor guilt leads Cody on a journey, bravely searching for a way to explain the incomprehensible. Cody discovers Meg's other life that had been kept secret from her and Meg's family. The boy who broke Meg's heart (Tragic Guitar Hero) and an encrypted file on Meg's computer open the door to solving the mysteries and finding 'someone to blame'.
This is a powerful and well written novel that sensitively explores the issue of suicide and the impact on survivors. This book is highly recommended as it optimistically invites the reader to consider the complexities of suicide and depression, along with the role of family, friends and bystanders in supporting individuals who are suffering from depression.
The author's note at the back of the book explains the inspiration for this novel (a young woman named Suzy) and includes a link to support materials. The movie rights to this novel have already been negotiated with New Line.
Linda Guthrie